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Still don’t understand why. This sucks so much, every time I wake up I want to cry.
Smoked so much, feel absolutely numb.
Eurgh fuck this. Just gonna buy another tens for myself.
I don’t know what I do to deserve all the negative things. I’m nice to everyone I meet. I try to be the best person I can be. I have flaws, doesn’t everyone? But I’m spending the majority of my time looking forward to how to be a better person, how to make other people happy and myself happy. I try so hard to do everything I can in my power to make everything okay, or at...
One word answers to everyone. I don’t want to go out tonight. Always seem to be the person left at the end. Nobody to talk to, nobody really cares. It’s nice when you have people to make sure if you’re okay, to fall back on. I feel like I have nothing.
Left my room for 5 minutes to get food. I don’t even feel like eating or anything.
Gutted isn’t the word. Can’t even face moving from my room.
Had the worst trust issues before all of this. Hence why I get scared. Now this has happened and I feel like I’m more alone than ever. 3 years since my last relationship and there was a reason for the length. As soon as I try to make things work, not just for myself, but for everything something fucking happens and this, it’s killed me inside. I feel like I’m not even here. I...
I’ve been distracting myself as long as possible today but the pain in my chest won’t leave me no matter what I do. Sad, angry, emotionless. It’s just the same pain recycling itself.
Weed & tea.
Can’t even roll this cigarette, my hands are shaking so much.
Just want to cry. Need to get home.
If you can listen to Wolf, Bastard & Goblin from an outsiders point of view that’s what my head is like. Like Dr TC etc. There’s something in there that won’t let me be happy. Someone who’s always telling me nothing is going to be okay. Someone trying to help me, but faking it.
I still feel like a boy. Just a kid with dreams. Sat here thinking about what it would be like to move to a desolated location in southern spain & find a dog that I’d love. Up in the hills. No phone, no disturbances, no internet, no nothing. Just a bookshelf and a bed and a kitchen in a small house, you know the white ones that don’t have carpets, just hard floors? I’d have a...
I don’t know where I’d be without Kid Cudi, TWY & Mike Skinner.
Just looks like all I do is hold people back anyway. I’m better off just holding myself back.
Knowing I make other people upset makes me want to throw up. I hate it.
Fuck, just want milk and cookies but I can’t even do that. Fuck you. Instead I’ll go home and listen to Bastard & TWY on repeat. I’ll draw stupid stuff on Photoshop and be miserable. I’ll go for a run but that won’t improve anything. I’ll act normal when I get in. I’ll eat food I don’t want to eat, then I’ll hate you some more and think...
Really don’t need people on my back about shit I’ve got nothing to do with right now. Especially from friends. Sit there and avoid everything and I still end up in the middle of it all.
Josh Lyford: Cynicism is cyclical and since I am... →
joshlyford: Cynicism is cyclical and since I am currently on a sarcasm downswing I thought (for once) that it would be an interesting idea to write from this mental space. I am not technically bipolar, not as far as the medical world is concerned, and at least not as far as anyone has yet to announce to me….
I’ve considered giving up drinking pretty much every day for the last year. I really want to do it but with the environment I live in and people I live around I don’t think I could do it. I mean, I didn’t drink this weekend and I kind of enjoyed waking up feeling fine. I still had fun last night and the night before. I guess if you can still have fun and not drink then why not, it’s just pressure...
I wish I could just feel okay all the time.
Need to get high as soon as I get back, nowhere to go though.
Fuck this. Feel worthless.
So shit. Just wanted one thing, didn’t even want to go out because of it.